the ups and downs that i`ve been through.

work.family.boyfriend.life

2011-07-17T22:38:00.005+08:00

olaaaaaa my fellow readers? how are ya`ll? i bet you guys misses me or you dont? please oh please tell me you miss me..haha..anyways,today i`m being good trying to update here..Mr Blogger has been so good to me for many years by helping me to `spit` out everything that is not happy within myself and my heart.. "i love you,Mr Blogger..!!" ok,so these past few weeks,i`ve been very busy with works,life and EVERYTHING! so let me start with :

1) work

work eh? haha..i couldnt tell everything for what had happen as it is P&C..only me and my colleagues know..but just to let you guys know that i`ve been working OT cause there is so much paper / documents need to be sorted out and filing as well..my colleagues is also busy with their works..Linda is back too! she got a baby boys! i call him Peguin cause there is one picture that makes him look like a PEGUIN! SOOOOO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEE..

2) family

i had some conflicts with my family especially with my mum..i havent been talking to her like almost 3 weeks,i guess? i dont eat dinner with them anymore except for yesterday i had dinner with them cause i followed my mum and Daniel to church but i didnt sat with them..i was outside..i couldnt not sit with them..i dont know why but it just happen..yesterday night,something happen..not good neither bad..it was like this..we had dinner at Our Place Coffee Shop..so,i arrived first before my mum & Daniel..then i sat two chairs before my dad and when my mum came,she sat beside me then i change my place..hoho :O am i mean by doing that? to tell you guys the truth,i did miss having dinner with my family :'( but i dont deserve sitting with them having dinner for all those mistake that i`ve done..and i dont deserve their forgiveness..

3) boyfriend

as for me and my boyfriend,he has been very strict to me for what had happen..i actually i dont mind him for being mad at me cause i know i`ve done something wrong and i admit it..anyways,he is the one who is taking care of me now since my dad has gave him the responsibilites of taking care of me..i know he is a resposible guy..eventough i know him only like a year plus but its like i know him like long long time ago! he has given me the last chance in life and relationship..since i dont want to lose him,i better change myself so that i wont regret loosing someone is so good and have the patience with my annyoing and playful attitude..i love my boyfriend and i know he loves me too eventhough he doesnt show it.he is the only guy who eventually gives me very good advice and also have the urge to change me..he is the best that i have ever had and i aint gonna let him go.. but IF (i hope it wont happen) me and him doesnt have the destiny,then i guess letting him is the only way for the both of us..maybe God has a plan for both of us,rite? we cant fight with God`s plan,rite? we`ll just see how the future goes :)

"sayang,i`m so sorry for all those mistake that i had done and i really hope that you`ll forgive me.."

4) life

life isnt as perfect now..not like last time where i still can talk and had jokes with my mum..and had late dinner with my boyfriend..now? everything has change..my life is boring and all alone in this house..the only person whom i`m talking to is my dad besides my naughty dog-Crystal..now then i know and actually realised that i could eventually hurt my mum so bad and deeply..i know i`ve been the bad girl since little till now..i was just wondering and asking myself, "when can i change..??" damn it! i never stop hurting my family and boyfriend..shhheeesss! i just hate myself so much,you knowwwwww..i dont want to say anything more..lets just say,i`ll keep in personal and more to myself..

( pssstt..this is my newest boyfriend : Lee Min Hoo)

i guess thats all from me..take care my dear readers..i`ll update whenever i have something to share okeyyy..love ya`ll..!!!

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :)

HOPELESS.

2011-07-12T16:42:00.003+08:00

" i feel so hopeless and useless..life isnt stable..i hope i die today in any way. please oh please,grant my wish..and people,dont cry and miss me when i`m gone.."

MAKING SUSHI :)

2011-06-05T23:08:00.004+08:00

hey my darlingsss..i hope you guys arent mad at me for not updating here..so so sorry aite..anyways,short post for today..not much time as the thunders & lightning is here now..today,me and my good friend,Ah Girl decided to make SUSHI..yesyes! one of my favourite food! hell yeah baby! i hope we are going to Brunei to eat SUSHI at ESCAPADE SUSHI..hehe :)

Ah Girl took me from my house at 11 plus at went to Calvary Charasmistic Church to pick her mum..her mum went to church..after that,we went to to have our lunch which apprrently my mum already `tapau` food for me..haha..so i ate twice..*fat fat* ..after lunch,we went to Financial Park to `waste time`..haha..LOL..after Financial Park,its time to go back home to make SUSHI! damn! i cant wait like SERIOUSLY :) haha..it was MY first attempt but not for Ah Girl..so this make me cooking something new..haha..i`m learning something new..i did bought some home too..to let my family try..hehe..pictures below :

this is with Mayo..delicious..except the rice-WE FAILED..haha

guess thats all from me..Goodnight darlingssss :)

his sadness is my sadness too..

2011-05-16T23:23:00.006+08:00

hello dear darlingsss! how are you all? i`m just in my normal mood now..not happy,angry or anything..just plain normal..but maybe i`m a little sad..cause of what? well,cause of my bestboyfriend..he is feeling down and sad now..and his sadness is my sadness too & I CAN FEEL IT..!!! haikz..i feel so damn weak after he told what happen and now he is feeling so down and there is nothing i can except giving him some advice and talk to him nicely..today,he didnt really find me at all (the whole day) and that kept me wondering the whole time at the office but i didnt mind at all cause i wasnt in my working mood today..well,since Sunday morning,my knee is pain and i dont know what had happen..even now its still pain and i didnt went to see the doctor..WHY? malas and so does my boyfriend..he was extremely tired yesterday as the night before he went out with his friends to have a drink..well,i guess he was a little drunk..haha :DDD but i dont mind at all cause its been awhile that he didnt went out for a drink with his friends..well,i dont want him to feel as if i wanna tie him and would not let him go out with his friend..hooo..I`M SO NOT LIKE THAT..

anyways,today i got nothing much to post..as i promised before,i`m gonna let you all see my birthday present..nothing much..SIMPLE YET MEANINGFUL..

anyways,thats all for today..nites & take care!!

present from my brother Daniel & Jenny as well..

present from bestboyfriend :)

the laptop is a present from my daddy :)

我爱你..你爱我吗？

2011-05-08T21:21:00.002+08:00

" 如果你决定选择她，请带着她走...我不想再看到你们两个..即使它打破了我的心，但这是对我们俩最好的方式..我希望你能做出正确的决定..要好好照顾自己..再见.. "

MOTHERS DAY & PARENTS 29th ANNIVERSARY CELEBRATION (in advance)

2011-05-08T15:13:00.007+08:00

(07.05.2011)

darlingsss! how are you all..before i start my entry,i would like to wish my mum & all the mumsiieee in this world,HAPPY MOTHERS DAY..heheheh..so now,let me begin my story..

last night,me & my family celebrated Mothers Day & my parents 29th Anniversary.. (long eh..hope they will be till eternity) well well,we had dinner at Tiara Seafood Restaurant..my family loves eating there..THE FOOD? 1 WORD = AWESOME..not saying cause my bestboyfriend is there but its a FACT! haha..dinner was paid by bestboyfriend but i felt not good so i told him i pay half and he pay half.. :) thats nicer,rite? so everything went well..i suprised my parents with a Chocolate Cheese Cake..DELICIOUS..haha :DD i told my mum that bestboyfriend had cooked something special for my mum & dad for this event (oh well,HE DID! ) haha..then the time where the cake was brought out,she asked me to call bestboyfriend out cause she wants to see him and guess what she did??!!! at first,she said "thanks for everything..BLAH.BLAH..BLAH..then she said to him (in chinese) "come i kiss you on behalf of your late mother.." OHMYGOSSSHH..i`m not being jealous or something but heyyy! this is the first time that my mum kissed my bestboyfriend or any of my EX-BOYFRIENDS..!!! okok..so,as you all know my bestboyfriend is a SHY-SHY BOY (only infront of my friends & families) he said thanks and i bet deep down his heart.he`ll be like "OHMG..!!! HER MUM KISSED ON MY CHEEK..!!" hahahaha..thats what i tought..kekekeke.. so after dinner,i followed my bestboyfriend as i wanted to tell him something..i went to Cold Kitchen to meet my craziest friend,Dayang Rahima..wakakakaka..she is my good friend all the time when i`m at Tiara..haha..she is the one always makes me laugh and always likes to make fun of me..then,its 10.00 PM..!! TIME TO GO BACK..!!! then me & her went down..she punched her card as i dont need to cause like duhhhh,I`M NOT WORKING THERE ANYMORE RIGHT..so i waited for her & i chat with her for awhile..after chat,i went to the car..

on the way back,i hugged my bestboyfriend so tight till he say "i havent bath,sayang..so busuk.." then i say lah "you will always be my boyfriend eben if you are BUSUK...!!!" then he pinched my nose..hahahaha..when we arrive at my house,my parents were about to go out..then they stop beside us and they invited my bestboyfriend to go in the house and well of coz,he dont want..why? SHY & havent bath yet..LOL..so we chatted and i have to let him go..before i got out from the car,i kissed him and i said out Goodnights.. (awww~ i miss him eventhough i`ve met him..and its sad to see him feeling tired,you knowwwww) so thats about it..will post up pictures..ENJOY :))))

Happy 29th Anniversary :)

i guess thats all from me..take care darlings..byebye :)

a night to remember :)

2011-05-04T23:55:00.003+08:00

Bong Kok Ming,thanks alot for celebrating my birthday with me & my family..i tought you couldnt make it as you said that you were working..haha :DD you lied to me..!! but still,i love you..haha :DD anyways,your attendance at the dinner is all i need..present? i dont need..really..no jokes..bare in mind,i dont need present everytime my birthday..you wish me and remember the day,is all i need from you..i really have fun last night..overall,I LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT..!!

you will always be my 帥戈 :))

sincerely,michi :)

happy 19th birthday to me :)

2011-05-04T21:59:00.006+08:00

hello peoples..!!! how are you all..?? haha :D see today`s title? hell yaa..i`m 19 years old now..which means,I AM OLD....hoho :O okok..still young..i admit..haha :DD so before i start about yesterday,let me tell you about my short trip to KK..

1st May 2011 (SUNDAY)

we took speed boat to Menumbuk..it took about 20 minutes? that was my first time using speed boat,you knowww..it was funnnnnnnnnnnnnnn..!! though i bought my xiao ming-ming with me..kekekekeke..Ah Girl & my mum kept laughing at me as i held my xiao ming-ming so hard & tight..scared he would FLY away..hahaha :DD..LOL..once arrive Menumbuk,we took the BIG BUS (Express Bus) to KK :))) i sat beside Ah Girl & i tell you,i couldnt sleep well,as the chair is SUCKS! it hurts my back! :'( sorry to say this but they really need to change the chair..my back was aching all the way to KK..damnnn..so you can say that i couldnt sleep well..we arrived KK round 12.15pm..as we reached KK,we walked to out hotel..well,it was NEAR so we decided to walk..hehe :) people kept on looking at me cause i brought xiao ming-ming,i guess? not sure..you tell me..haha :DD we check in-went to the room and off we go to WISMA MERDEKA! hehe..on the way to Wisma,i sms-ed my PA @ GOOD FRIEND telling him that we are almost arriving at Wisma Merdeka :) we had our luch at the food court at Wisma & I TELL YOU! THE FOOD WAS VERY VERY VERY THE DELICIOUS! hahahahaha..100% DELICIOUS than Labuan food..SERIOUSLY..!! no shit! wakakakakakaka :DDDD after lunch,the two other ladies had their SHOPPING while me,went to meet Mark @ PA..we rounded Wisma like zillion of times and we never got bored cause we were busy talking & talking..wakakakakaka :DD okok..overall,Mark accompany us that half day..we treat me lunch & dinner..he was really-really nice & CUTE too! haha :DD i`m saying that i like him but seriously,he`s nice and any girl who is in relationship with him,is LUCKY..!!! we only took 2 pictures with him..one is with me only & one is with my mum & Ah Girl..he went back & we went back too..he was caring cause he told me to be careful on the way back to the hotel..see,such a good PA..(i was never wrong to take him as my PA) haha :DDD went back to the hotel-had a bath,chat for awhile and WENT TO DREAMLAND.. (p/s : i slept on the floor & my back hurts that whole night) but i dont mind..

FOOD :AMAZING :)

ah Girl :)

mummy :)

Mark @ PA (yang tidak bergaji)

Mark,mummy & Ah Girl :)

2nd May 2011 (TIME TO GO BACK TO LABUAN! )

woke up around 7 plus..bath-get ready to have breakfast! we had our breaksfast just around the corner near to the hotel..and i tell you ONCE AGAIN! THE FOOD WAS AWESOME..!! just couldnt imagine if i stay at KK and eat all the food they have,i think i can follow ASIA BIGGEST LOSER..really..NO JOKESSS..!! wakakakakaka..after breakfast,we went back to the hotel-take a rest and wake up-went to CP-bought food-went back to hotel-went to the Express bus-GO TO MENUMBUK! wakakakakakakaka :DDD at the bus,I SLEPT WELL cause the SEAT / CHAIR was amazing eventhough the bus is kinda old..that bus made me sleep well..thank you bus..haha :DD when we arrive Menumbuk,it was raining heavily..!!! ohmg..so ALL of us had to run to the terminal or whereever we want to go..hoho :O that was my first time running in the rain in MENUMBUK! hahahaha..we safely arrived Labuan at 6.45pm..yeeeaaahhh!! even i like KK very much,but Labuan still owns my heart..kekekekeke..bestboyfriend came to meet me after he finish work as i had to give him his PRESENTS and his FOOD :)) i bought him,a HANDPHONE (SE SPIRO @ WALKMAN), a shirt,food & keychain..glad he liked it :))

ok thats the story for my short..now will be MY BIRTHDAY DAY! 03.05.2011..

yesterday,i work like usual and nothing much happen as all of us are doing our won work and settle everything..after work,mum picked me up from work and went back back home..she told me that dinner is 7.00pm.. i wasnt in the mood as my bestboyfriend wasnt celebrating with me cause he told me that he had to work and there is function..haikz..so with little dissapointment,i forced myself to bath & get myself ready..well,i was the star last night..BIRTHDAY GIRL..wakakakaka..THE PRINCESS..hoho :O and the restaurant,i had a phone call with my kuya Abon..its bee years that we didnt talked to each other and last night he called me and wishes me! how taughtful! i almost shed tears..then after i hung up,suddenly,MR BONG KOK MING & MISS THEN PUI YEE sat beside me! ohmygosh..!!! my two best companion.!! love them to bits! and not to forget Jenny too..she is one of them-my best companion- eventhough she ever hurt my feeling BAD..but come on..lets think mature..everyone does mistakes rite? so lets just forget about it..hehe :)) when they arrive,i introduce them to my family members..i introduce them my bestboyfriend and they go like "what is his name??" hahahaha..his name is quite special ah till no one dont catch up his name ahh..kekekeke :))) this is my first time having dinner with my family and my bestboyfriend is around..the feeling it is SOOOO SPECIAL..!!! I LOVE IT..!! the best part was when my dad said to my bestboyfriend, "now,you take of her ah.." ahhh..so nice to hear that word come out from my dad`s mouth :)) my dad ANNOUCE that he is going to buy me a laptop for my birthday present..awww~ much happier..WAKAKAKAKAKA :DD such a spoil-brat..yesterday night dinner was a night / day to remember..my family,bestboyfriend & friends are the best..they made my birthday SO WONDERFUL..!! ohmygoshhh..i dont fell OLD anymore! i feel so happy..!!! hehehe..thank you everyone for such a wonderful night & dinner & day..btw,pictures below are yesterday`s event..less pictures but VERY MEANINGFUL.. (sorry,will post up pictures of present later okeyyy..)

make a wish :)

me & the cake (promoting birthday cake)

*YUMMY*

love this picture so much.. (and thanks for the suprise)

" i love you so much,sayang.."

Ah Girl,mummy,bestboyfriend & me :)

beloved parents :)

my two best companions (not forget Jenny too)

craziest uncle & aunt..

the siblingss.. (all so chubby-daddy & mummy feed us well..)

I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH.. *hugs & kisses*

so darlingsss,i guess thats all from me..take care & God Bless..

byebye :)

RANDOM TOUGHTS.

2011-04-30T00:49:00.006+08:00

good day darlingsss..how are you all anywayss? so here i am blogging with the time of 1.00am..!! so,how can i say this? a `GOOD MORNING` or a `GOOD NIGHT` greetings? hmm..i,myself is confuse you know cause everytime when i chat with my bestboyfriend or maybe my friends,we`ll go like "Good Night" instead of "Good Morning"..so dear readers,you tell me..haha :DD so,today i`ll write anything that come across my mind okeeyyy :) i dont have a topic for todays post..

1st) I`M GOING TO KK THIS SUNDAY..!! ohmyy..can wait for it..its been 1 YEAR PLUS i didnt went for my HOLIDAYSSSS :'( i get jealous whenever my family or bestboyfriend or friends went for THEIR holiday..me? at LABUAN only..SO BORED till i wanna kill PEOPLE!!!! i wanted to go END OF MAY but WE CANT (THUNDER OILFIELD SERVICES (M) SDN BHD workers) cause we have DRILLING CAMPAIGN (project) coming up..so,all of our HOLIDAYS are been FROZENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN..kesian kan us..but its ok..i guess its all worth it anywaysss..hehe..END OF THE MONTH : $$$..haha :DD i`m going with my mum and Ah Girl (Rainnie) hehehe..1st time going for a short holiday with her..I BET IS GONNA BE FUNNNN!!! we are only going for 1 day cause the next day i have to work and its gonna be MY BIRTHDAY..i`m gonna be OFFICIALLY 19 YEARS OLD..!! (damn i feel OLD already :O ) haha.. and i`m hoping that i could meet my `MEET-AT-FACEBOOK-FRIEND,Mr Mark Casselle..he is a good friend of mine that i met at FACEBOOK which apperently is Mr Fenson Lim`s cousin..!!! haha :DD SO NGAM,dude..hehe..we had been chatting for quite sometime and we trully get along well (As friends only) and hopes that he will be my good friend till end! haha :D

people,meet my friend / beloved P.A -Mark Casselle :)

bestboyfriend ♥

2nd) I`M UPSET! with those people who loves to bully my BESTBOYFRIEND..damn..they tend to just ignore whatever he does to him :'( so sad..everytime he tells me what happen,my heart breaks inch by inch..ohhh..i wanted to help him but he insisted on it :'( it really really breaks my heart,you kowww..i wanna cry also got,i wanna be mad also got..but i cant fight the rights for him as HE WONT LET ME..hmm..he says that,whatever happen,HAPPENS FOR A REASON..ohmyy..he is goooood..i can say that my bestboyfriend is a type of guy who easily can be cheated by other people and thats why i always have to take of him most of the time and tell him to be EXTRA CAREFUL with people these daysss..i mean,come on..you can see his face and you can say that "ahh,we can easily fool this guy.." thats what i mean..haikz..i`m not controlling HIM or his MONEY..i`m just scared that people might put into some situation that he wouldnt know that its gonna happen :|

he came to my house just now to take Wua Chai`s pendrive and i gave my hard disc to them so that they could watch movies together..well,i dont need it anyways cause I`M GOING TO KK!!!! (i just need it when i`m back to LABUAN and when I`M WORKING..!!! ) the hard dics is like part of my life cause it has pictures that ONCE LOST CONSIDER AS A MEMORY..yaaaa.. back to the story : when he came just now,i went inside the car and we talked for awhile and there he told me everything..when i heard it,ohmyyy..i heart REALLY torn bit by bit..i could understand why THAT PERSON doesnt wanna pay back the money that he own my bestboyfriend!!! ITS PAYDAY,ASSHOLE!! PAY YOUR DEBTS..!!! i feel so sorry for my boyfriend..i mean he does have money but come on..he is working hard to earn every single penny but THAT PERSON tend to act like my bestboyfriend doesnt need to have that much money as he doesnt have a wife or family (i guess?) ..come on lah brother..you are working and my bestboyfriend is working..so please,be considered..he is working so hard till HE HAS NO TIME FOR ME as when he goes back,he is freaking tired and much to think..and you there ACT LIKE NOTHING IS HAPPENING!!!!! " i`m so gonna find you when i cant stand of this thing anymore..I DONT GIVE A FUCK WHO THE HELL ARE YOU..I DONT GIVE A SHIT IF YOU ARE OLDER THAN ME..I GIVE A DAME YOU ARE ONCE A FRIEND OF MINE OR MAYBE WE ONCE USED TO BE CLOSED OR SOMETHING..I DONT GIVE A CARE ABOUT ALL THESE..AS FAR AS I KNOW,IF YOU HURT MY BESTBOYFRIEND REAL BAD NEXT TIME OR MAYBE YOU DONT PAY YOUR DEBTS,YOU`LL GET THE RESULT FOR ACTING LIKE A STUPID GUY WHO ACTS NOTHING HAPPEN..YOU JUST WAIT..JUST WAIT.." back to the story : after he had told me everything,i comforted him and let him rest on my shoulder and he held my hands so tight as if he doesnt wan to let go..i patted his head and tell him not be `dumb-dumb` anymore..learn to say "NO" no matter what happen.. (i got this idea from Betty anyways..) dont be sad anymore..he held my hand even tighter.. awww~ i know he is sad & real down now..hmm..kesian him.. :'( then i hugged him real tght and so does him..i feel so `DEAD` whenever i hugged him..believe me or not,whenever after i hugged him,and when i go to sleep,i`ll SLEEP-DEADLY..seriously..NO SHIT..!!! AND NO INSOMNIA..haha :DDD dont you just love it when you sleep so SOUNDLY??? and wake up the next feeling FRESH??? ahh..thats what i meant,bebeh..i like the feeling of holding his hands and putting it near / beside my face..i dont know why but i love doing it..he makes me feel NOT SECURED but alive..he taught me many good,great & wonderful things that i`ve never known..if it wasnt for him,i think i could have run away from home..really..this is not a SHIT that i`m gonna post..even we did some stupid things but overall,he is amazing in his way and i love it..what i love about him :

:he doesnt DRESS UP (like any other chinese guys)

:he is CUTE! (in his way & i love it)

:he is FUNNY! (even just looking at his face only can me LAUGH!)

:he is a RESPONSIBLE GUY (WORK is his first priority)

:he PLAYFUL! (with me & close friends only)

:he is MANJA..!! (he will only does it to me)

:he loves MOVIES (whenever he finish work-went home & bath,he`ll automatically watch movies then text me telling that he wants to sleep already...-GREAT!- )

:he loves hearing SAD SONG (LIKE ME!)

:he is WEIRD (i cant describe how but WEIRD IN HIS WAY) wakakakakkakaka :DD

:he is SKINNY..!! (the skinniest boyfriend that i ever had..!! i`m like twice his size,mann)

:he acts like he is AN ARTIST! (and that what makes it fun! hearing him sing..voice -NOT BAD)

:he is NOT ROMANTIC (acted cool only..but i dont mind :DD )

:he is SHY with my family & friends (but it will be different when with me)

:he SMILED! (last time,HE WONT SMILE..i get bored watching him)

:he loves BLACK colour (which makes me wanna kill him!! but now he wears lesser black..GOOD BOY)

:he is like a MOTHER in a BOYFRIEND version (i loveeeee him so much)

there is so many things i like about him...everytime when i`m with him,its either we are happy or either we FIGHT..but we only FIGHT like 5 minutes than we are okeyyy :)) well,in a relationship,there is always UPS & DOWNS,ritee? so,it takes both sides to tolerate and understand to each other to make everything well & fine..so,sometimes,i cannot really blame him on everything or maybe blame him that he doesnt have the time to spend with..you know,he is the only boyfriend that i spend less sweet times with him..all these due to his work & our time is not the same..i worked from 8.00am until 5.00pm..he works at 10.00am until 2.00pm then 6.00pm until 10.00pm..see,not the same rite? so,its hard for both of us to go out..after work,i wanna spend time also hard..he sometimes can be very very tired so i didnt ask him to go my house..i ask him to go back home & take some rest..anyways,my family is ok for me date with him..so,you might say we are in progress on everything..!!! HAHA :DDD my mum even sometimes cooks dinner for him.. "KAKI BABI,geng.." he love it and could not wait to eat it..!!! haha :DD overall,he is AMAZING..really really AMAZING :p and that what makes me love him to bitsss! (kisses) okok..ENOUGH about..i dont need to tell the whole story about him to all of you,rite..wakakakaka :DDD

3rd)WORK..starting May,BHP-DRILLING CAMPAIGN will start and all of us will be busy like HELL and that makes me gonna be sleeping early and wake up early to work and finish up my pending works so that i can focus on new works..yeah yeah! and hopefully i can start back my jogging..I MISS JOGGING..it keeps me so healthy and i can lost weight if only i continue..I FEEL FAT NOW..SO SAD :'( i wanna be skinny like my bestboyfriend! hehe..jkjk..lost 10kg is like heaven to me,mannnn!!!! HAHAHA :DDDD okok..work.work.work.since the project is starting soon,then i will also gonna be having less time with my bestboyfriend..but i`m trying my best to work everything out well & steady :) cheers for us,darlinggssss..would appreciate to all of you if you could pray for the both of us..cause i hope that he is the guy who holds my hands till the end ofour story & life..SERIOUSLY..honestly saying,I WANT HIM TO BE THE MAN WHO TELLS ME THAT HE LOVES ME AND NEEDS ME IN HIS LIFE..WITHOUT ME,HE IS NOTHING..waaa..i hope he`ll say that to me ONE DAY..ONE DAY..hehe..okok..anyways,being busy this week as there is so much work to do..hoho :O so many many work..i`m only 19 and my job is like a 24 years old who handles it..haha :DD but i seriously like it you know..it gives you more experience that you need in the future..i was hoping that ONE DAY i could do OPERATION work..i wanna do those kind of job..wanna know why..its not only in the office but outside and you wear coverall,safety boots,helmets & safety glasses..! love it,you knoww..aaarrrgghhh..CANT WAIT! CANT WAIT! i prefer outside job than office job..cause if office,i tend to get sleepy easily and i would eventually get hungry ALL THE TIME..haha :DD (how the hell can i loose weight like this?) hehehe :))) so,i hope everything goes what has been planned :) -AMEN-

well darlings,thats all from me today..will post once i come back from KK,okeyyy :) its already 3.00am (30.04.2011) and i need my sleep now..Good Morning / Night..sweet dreams..take care & God Bless..byebye darlssss..

typical Sunday

2011-04-17T17:52:00.005+08:00

hello peoples..!!! how are you all? i`m kinda boring so i decided to update here :) okey okey okey..i was suppose to go to Tiara Labuan Hotel to see AutoShow but had to cancelled because my dearest partner,Ah Girl @ Rainnie,tidak jadi jalan..i`m not mad..take it easy..afterall,my bestboyfriend called me just now and said this year event not so cool like last year..so,i dont have the feeling of regretness..kekekekekekekekeke :))) nevermind,we`ll wait for next year`s event..hehehe..

so today,nothing much happen..i woke up at 12.00pm..wahahahahha..well,i slept at 3.00AM!!! so,i need my full sleep..kekekeke..woke up,bath and went straight to the PC and online..i online till now..kekekeke..okey..today`s activity is BORING..NOTHING MUCH TO SAY..

yesterday night,after dinner,i followed Ah Girl & Ying Ying and her husband to Old Town to hangout..filling out boring time..we called Mr Ah Wah too! Mr Bong Kok Ming is still working and he could only come after work..kekekekeke..at Old Town,many topic that we talked & disscussed..haha..but i`m not gonna say it out here cause it private and something personal..but after Mr Bong Kok Ming came,the serious topic became something funny..hoho :O we rewind back their stories of the KL journey..they went KL on February..just before Chap Goh Mei..everytime BBF (bestboyfriend) see Ah Girl,he would automatically laugh out loud and talk about their KL TRIP..lol..and Ah Girl would eventually `KILL` him..haha :DD kesian my BBF :)) well,he is the sweetest i had [love.love.love] after Old Town,all of us went seperate ways which means i followed Mr Bong Kok Ming home..i mean he send me home lah..at first,he didnt send me home,we went round Labuan first..well,he wanted to see something so i let him..after that,i ask to send me home as i saw his tired face and makes me feel bad if i ask him to bring me jalan-jalan again..on the way he send me home,i hold his hand and place right next to my cheek..whenever i does that,he would eventually pat on my face and i could feel the feeling of being secured..i just love the feeling of that,you knowwwwwwwwwwwwww..so,everything went as normal..he sent me home and he met my dad! wakakaka :DD my dad said he shy shy..awww~ he is shy but only with my family..but if with me & his friends,sorry lah..he`ll be talking so loud and laugh like nobody`s business..hoho :O after that,i went inside my house and THE END OF MY STORY..haha :DD seriously,nothing much to say again..

i think i`ll just post pictures for all my darlings okeyyy ..enjoy :)

my xiao ming ming :)

given by bestboyfriend and he say it looks like me -.-"

SO YOUNG SO NAIVE

this little boy so cute..my bestboyfriend loves this little one so much..

xiao xiao bin :)

i guess thats all from me..take care darlingsss..will uodate whenever i have stories,okeyyy.. ♥

SICK MODE :'(

2011-04-07T15:48:00.004+08:00

with my best bro,Welter Mika :) [i miss you,bro :'( ]

the three monkey (Jeery,James & Ben)

i miss you.

at work place (WAREHOUSE)

at Franklin Yard

hello dear darlingsss..!! how are you all? its been awhile that i didnt even get to blog..too busy and plus,I`M SICK NOW! currently in office now..just got back from IMMIGRATION doing permits and took one of our client`s passport :) such a busy week for us all even our lady boss..haha..most of the time i spend is at FP (IMMIGRATION) doing Work Permits..wakakakakaka :DD my body is feeling weak..damnnn..i`m a person who easily gets sick..thats why..one person sick,i`ll be the next victim :) my antibody is not good..thats why..

so,my dearest sayang got back from Kuching yesterday afternoon..he safely arrived Labuan at 12.10pm.. Thank God for that..we didnt went out yesterday night as he is having his fever..pity pity him :( i was mad at him at first but as i think back,he is tired and he didnt even get enough sleep / rest when he is in Kuching..then i`m being understanding girlfriend,i let it be..then at the night,after sleeping like a pig in the evening,i took a bath and went online..HAHA! [i am such an asshole] hoho :O i chatted with Mr Wua Chai (Lau Sih Wah) he is my bestboyfriend`s roommate..he is a shy and romantic guy..seriously..NO SHIT (like Cindy always say) even he chat with me,he is being such a gentleman and he `pujuk` me whenever he does something wrong..wakakakaka :DD see,SO SWEET..but i only act him as my friend..not more than that :) he is great and he told lots of stories last night and i`m glad that he told me things that my boyfriend didnt wan to tell me..we chat till almost 2.00am..!! ohmygoshhh..punya lamaaaa..

so just morning,he (Wua Chai) sms me telling me that my boyfriend is still sleeping..wow! AMAZING BOYFRIEND..then i told him not to disturb him..let him be..he must be tired..kekeke..and todat,i saw someone that i always see him ever since i know who the hell he is..CRAP!!! my mum say "BHAAA..KAMU ADA JODOH TUH.." ada kah patut..LOL punya mama..he was sitting with my uncle Chris and of course i did see him too but i ignored..wakakakakaka ;DDD

okok..i`m almost run out of idea..dont know what to say again..shit! i guess thats all from me..take care everyone & God Bless :D

TRANSFORMATION :)

2011-03-31T22:39:00.003+08:00

DARLINGSSSSSS!!! ohmygoshh..trully excited with my post for today cause this is the TRANSFORMATION that i`ve been talking about in my FACEBOOK :D

MY BOYFRIEND has totally change his style :) *clap clap* i almost fainted when i saw him yesterday..seriously..no jokess..HE BECAME SOOOOOOOOO HANDSOME :)))) its like i saw someone new that i`ve never met before..GOSH..last nite,i couldnt even sleep as his new transformation gave me a big & huge impact..wakakakakakakakakakaka :DDDD btw,below are a few pictures taken yesterday..didnt took alot cause he wanted to go back and sleep..he was tired..its ok..MORE PICTURES soon (when he come back from Kuching ) oh yaa..he is going to Kuching tomorrow..back to his hometown..gonna miss him like HELL..!! huhu :'( too bad i didnt go..well,i`m working & i have TONS of work that needs to be done..

my handsome boy - Mr Calvin Bong Kok Ming ♥

by the way,today,i dont feel like my usual-self at work..i dont know why..i feel so DOWN..haikzzz..everything i did was just all wrong :(.. CRAP!!!! i hate this feeling..seriously..its not like me,you know..i feel bad when Betty and Nor ask me question and me answered WRONGLY..that means I GIVE WRONG INFORMATION..hmmm..shitsss..i dont like lah this feeling :'( i dont know wether they can forgive me or not..ohmyyyyyyy..

"I`M SO SO SORRY :'( "

my head today went blank..it is as if like my soul aint working....i just dont know what to do..plus,my body ache like hell..its like i`m not into working today..i just dont know! I DONT KNOW..!!!!! "Dear God,please help me..I`M LOST :'( "

i guess thats all from me..Good Night darlingsss..

2011-03-26T23:17:00.002+08:00

so hello darlingsss! how are you all ? ohmygosh..its been awhile since my last post here..wakakaka..its like 1 or 2 weeks..is it? not sure..hmm..so today,i`m just gonna post something that is random that just came out from my head..hehe..so so,at the office..many things happen..well,we were practically bust..VERY BUSY..but thank God that Betty is around to help me out :)) (terima kasih ya,Betty :DD nanti saya belanja kau COLA ahh..kekeke) both of us had to wait long time at the Immigration..well,i teach how to do the documentation for 3 months work permits..she learn quick! i like! kekekeke..well as for me,there is much more to learn..i`m getting to have the feeling of wanting to learn about LOGISTIC / OIL & GAS..hmm..well,its not wrong rite? maybe its in our JIN..not sure..you think?

so hows life? perfectly fine..just lack of sleeping..INSOMNIA (as always) and always missing my bestboyfriend (missing him every second of my life) he is busy as always but i really have to tolerate with his job cause my mum and friends told me that working in a hotel,time cannot be wasted and there will no time for themself or for other people..i get it..but i just dont like when he was suppose to offday but then he was called to WORK..not because of bust but because some people tend to escape from HARD WORK..!!!

"excuse me sir,but if you dont want to work,then please resign or something..dont let other people do your dirty work okeeeyyy..i dont like it..he was suppose to off day and thats the only time that i can spend time with him..so dont spoil my and his day..i know you can easily see your wife but i cant..i`m not staying with him..so please think about other people`s feeling..and he is tired doing his work..plus doing your work? please lah brother..think about other people..IF one day,he got sick or anything happen to him and its all because of you,YOU AINT GOING ANYWHERE,asshole..i dont like you since the 1st time we met..take note everything i say here..THANK YOU FOR PAYING ATTENTION.."

i`m pissed off with `this` guy who thinks he can always bully my Bong Kok Ming..ohmyyy..he better dont bully him cause i aint gonna let him bully him..he is my Bong Kok Ming and i`m gonna protect him..!!! (uiseehhh..sounded so HEROIN lahh..shit) okok..dont with all these..belows are recently took pictures..i like it :) enjoy..

say hello to my Chef Kok Ming :)

i guess thats all from me..take care dear darlingsss :) hugs& kisses..God Bless.

idea gone lost :|

2011-03-13T19:26:00.004+08:00

hello hello dear darlingsss! how are you all? ohmygosh..miss you all dear readers soooo much :))) currently busy-ING with works & life..SO HECTIC >.<

2nd,my life has been so FRUSTRATING & been GRUMPY with bestboyfriend..damnnn..i dont know what happen to me..everytime he talks nicely to me,i`ll go like a mad woman shouting at him or maybe making him mad..HAHA :DDD last time it was him who does this but now its my turn and i`ll say something like,"NOW YOU FEEL WHAT I FEEL LAST TIME WHEN YOU DID IT TO ME..???!!!" and he`ll go like "that was last time storyyy.." haha..seee..thats how freako i am to him...kesian oh kesian..last night,he did call me like millions of time but i didnt pick his phone and the next morning i blame him for everything..HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA :DDDD i bet he has become skinnier than beforeeeee.... (just kidding,sayang..you know i love you,riteeeeeeeee..? )

last,i wanna post out something funny here..i got a story that i wanna share with all of you dear readers..its a story about a girl whom i know and i bet,she knows me too..well,i am in a relationship with her EX-BOYFRIEND : BONG KOK MING! oh yesssss..want me to write out her name? i wont write out here cause i know that you know her name.. she is currently working at Dayang Enterprise Sdn Bhd..haha..something funny about her is,even i dont know her,I BECAME to know her from inside to the outside of her..wakakakakaka :DDD i dont know why i want to talk about her but my heart ask me to write about her..AND NOW,i dont know what to write about her..damnnnn..nevermind..next time when i know what to write about her or maybe some ideas,i`ll definately write about her okeyyyy :)

so i guess thats all from me today..cheers & take care..

exercise..

2011-02-28T23:08:00.003+08:00

hello darlingsss! i`m back! haha :D sorry for not updating these few days.as usual,BUSY..haha..so ok..today is gonna be a short post only as i`m running out of time..I WANNA GO TO SLEEP :) today,i made my mind that starting today,i`m gonna jog for maybe 1 hour like that with my dog.yess.its CRYSTAL CHUA MEI MEI..hehe..so is gonna accompany me jogging..which means she is gonna jog too..haha :DDD as you all might know,i`ve promised Jenny that imma gonna lost 10KG by AUGUST 2011..!! haha :DDD wish me luck,darling..so below are some pictures for all of you..enjoy :))

so cute..she`s praying :)

i guess thats all for now..going to bed now..Good Night darlings & my dearest boyfriend,Bong Kok Ming :) i love you....

he is back-gifts-i love him :)

2011-02-20T22:45:00.006+08:00

hello dear darlingssss! how are you all? hope you all are fine and been blessed by God :) so so,my boyfriend is back at Labuan and i miss him SO SO SO SO SO MUCH! no words is best to describe how much i missed him :) haha :D so ok..around 5 something he went to my house and took his dearest `bao bei`..well,he left his car at my home and asked me to take care of `her`..not to say much more,i did took chances to drive it as well :DD HAHA..naughty naughty me..LIKE WHO GIVES A FUCKING CARE? haha..so ok..lets get to the point..when he take his car,he told me that he wants to have dinner with me tonight at 7.00pm..so i said ok..well,i miss him-of coz i wanna have dinner with him..so just now at 7.00pm,he took me and went to KFC for our dinner..well,most of the shop that we wanted to go were closed and KFC is the only place that is fast and that is why it is called FAST FOOD! haha :DD after dinner,while we were inside the car,he gave all the gifts that he bought for me while he is at KL :) one by one he give it to me..i warned him not to buy anything for me but he is STUBBORN and he did! haha..i was mad but at the same time-HAPPY :) haha :DDD so what did he bought? pictures below :

thats my chinese name : MEI FONG

the couple watch..he is gonna have the other one tomorrow..well,he is my BOYFRIEND :D

DOGGIE KEYCHAIN!

a shirt from PADINI (i didnt know he knows how to shop for clothes and its WHITE! )

something to protect / keeping your ears warm.he bought this for me because he said that its cute.. -.-"

LOVE THIS SO MUCH! waaaaaaaaaa!!!!!! it attracts me because its DOGGIE!!!!

OVERALL PICTURES :)

so that are the gifts for me from him..love it and will cherish till ETERNITY :) after that,we went to the beach and relaxed there but we are just inside the car as it was raining..its ok..i get to spend some quality time wih him..we both hugged each other as both of us misses one another :'( then,he holds my hand and kisses me softly on my forehead and said, "i love you so much,sayang..you gave me lots of moral support.i promise you,no matter what happen,you`ll be mine-till eternity.." WAAAAA! i miss him so much!!!!!!! okok..i`m being so emo here..after that,we rounded Labuan i told him its better to send me home now as i wanted him to get some rest eventhough i know that he is still on holiday tomorrow..i want him to rest till he doesnt want to rest anymore..haha :DDD joking..he sends me home.we gave each other a kiss goodbye & off i go..so now,he is asleep and i want to sleep too! i guess thats all from me..take care everyone!

Good Night & dont let the bugs bite..Blessed dreams & Goodbye :)

"i love you so much,Calvin Bong Kok Ming..♥"

BORED.

2011-02-19T09:50:00.002+08:00

17.02.2011 - Dinner at Tiara Seafood Restaurant. (Tiara Labuan Hotel)

DAMN BORED.and i look different without eyeliners -.-" haha :D

p/s : i miss my boyfriend.he is still at KL :(

Valentines Day :)

2011-02-15T00:10:00.003+08:00

hello dear darlingssss! first of all,i wanna wish you all a very Happy Valentines Day..well i do not give a shit TO THOSE ARENT CELEBRATING IT.haha :D VALENTINES means LOVE not SEX (get that,woman!!!!) okok..today is Valentines and like most couple,i did went out with my boyfriend but we didnt went out long..only for a few hours.he was sick-FEVER. awww :'( it hurts my heart to see him in his condition like that..i wasnt mad at him but felt sad for him.he wanted to celebrate Valentine so bad but sick took over him.kesian.nevermind.tomorrow we are going out..haha :D so so,i did received a present from him. A DIAMOND NECKLACE :) love it soooo much.. (thanks so much,sayang..i love youuuuuuuuuuuuu ) [picture below]

love it so much.simple but yet Pretty..HAHA :D i did gave him present too..something that will keep him save whereever he go especially when he is driving..hehe..i dont want to loose him that quick..so,its better to prevent bad things from happening,rite? i kissed him to say thanks and so does he :) and again-I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU..haha :D and and when he sends me home,i gave him a sweet kiss just for him and this very special day :)

"CALVIN MY SAYANG, thanks for the gift and everything.i dont mind you`re sick today.i understand.well,last week i was sick too and you understand my situation..you asked me to take lots of rest and sleep early..thats so sweet of you..sayang,without you,i might still lost in this world..thanks for guiding me throughout our relationship..i know there are ups and downs in this past few months when we are together..dont worry,we both try to make it work,ok sayang..and i dont know what spell you put on me cause i fucking love you so much.no words can ever describe how much i love you and how much i wanna be with you..you are like my `mother` in a boyfriend version..i dont mind but yet I LOVE IT :) haha :DDD sayang,sorry for all those silly mistakes i`ve made..i`ll promise i`ll changed and prove it too you..and thanks for being good with my family,especially with my mum..she obviously likes you cause she let me date with you and she always ask about you..i`m her daughter and i know my mum-VERY WELL..haha :DD you & her made such a good friend and hope this goes till-FOREVER..hehe..and my dear,you ought to know that you are the only guy whom i love so much and hope with God`s love,you are the husband to me in the future..meeting you is the best thing had ever happen in my life..I LOVE YOU SO MUCH,Calvin Bong Kok Ming..i dont care your background cause that is not what i`m looking at.i`m looking at YOU & YOUR HEART.screw to those who hates you..who cares what they wanna say about you..as long i`m happy and comfortable with you,i`m ok..i want you-THE ONLY YOU..i just hope we could build our own memory till the end of our lifes..lets build our own memory..nothing can lead us apart and NOTHING CAN EVER STOP US.well,NOTHING CAN STOP ME FROM LOVING,sayang..YOU ARE MY LIFE AND THE AIR THAT I BREATH..i love you,Calvin Bong Kok Ming ♥ "

so ok darlingsss..i guess thats all from me..take care & God Bless..byebye :D

2011-02-13T17:27:00.002+08:00

heyyo darlings! how are you all.well well well,today i wanna post out some chinese songs that i like to hear.do enjoy :)

黃小琥--沒那麼簡單

Huang Siau Hu - Mei Na Mo Cien Tan.

康康-你不愛我

Kang Kang - Ni Bu Ai Wo

丁当--我愛他

Ding Dang - Wo Ai Ta

林俊杰--江南

JJ Lin - Jiang Nan

BANGS!

2011-02-12T09:48:00.002+08:00

so yesterday,i decided to cut my hair-BANGS (i look like when i was at kindergarden! ) hahahaha :D i like it with no regrets..haha :D my boyfriend did saw it and he laugh at me.maybe because i look like a little girl.thats whyyyy..LOL.. so ok..nothing much happen yesterday.Valentine Day is coming SOON (like 2 more dayss) i need to find a special gift for my beloved BONG KOK MING (damn,i love him)..still no idea but yeah..even i dont know what to give but i still need to give rite.its VALENTINES DAY and its only ONCE A YEAR! haha :D as for him,i dont know what he is going to give me.i dont wan to ask but i hope its something not worth the price but something for me to cherish :)

oh yaaa..i got a story for my darlingsssss..that day,my boyfriend wont a lottery price.around RM5k..HAHAHA :D i`m pretty much happy for him not for the money but for winning the price.well,he has some financial problem as he wanted to go back to Kuching this coming April.he wanted visit his mum (already deceased-May Her Soul Rest In Peace) and his family as well..i told him to say thank you to his mum when visit her and he said "ITS A MUST"..haha..goodboy...okok..lets go back to the story.it happen when he called me..i picked up the phone and he talk to me so gentle and i wasnt really know what was happening.then he asked me what i want for Valentines Day.i said i dont know cause I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT! so he said that he`s gonna buy me a white gold necklace but i rejected it.then he told me he is GONNA buy me a diamond ring.i was like WHATTHEFUCK???!!!!! i rejected it straight-to-the-point.HAHA :DDD then i told him that i`m not those kind of girl who wears jewels anywhere i go and please i am a simple person.give me something simple that will be fine with me..then he said he`s gonna suprise me.so now,i seriously dont know what he is gonna give me.haha :D i told my mum about it and she was like "SERIOUSLY?" and i said "FUCK YEAH"..haha..LOL.. then the next day,I FEVER :( *damn* and now,everytime he sees me,he`ll smile with his EVIL SMILE.lol..

so ok darlings..thats all from me :) will post when there is time & stories..have a great day everyone!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR & VALENTINES DAY (soon)

you......

2011-02-07T00:39:00.001+08:00

YOU WERE NEVER MINE,AFTER ALL..

Goodbye,my love.

CNY! CNY! CNY!

2011-02-04T00:39:00.001+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR,EVERYONE!

days after days.

2011-01-30T17:52:00.003+08:00

olaaa darlings! how are you all? as for me,i`m always tired & sleepy.i dont know why but i do have INSOMNIA problems but its just minor INSOMNIA.my boyfriend asked me to take sleeping pill to sleep but nehhh..i dont want to really so much to MEDS.so,today,i just finish cleaning the kitchen.very OILY.haha.and around 1.00pm,Aunty Cora came over to our house to get our nails done.i didnt paint my hand finger nailz only my leg part.well,there is still 2 days till CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE :) so,i`m gonna paint it later.

so these few days,my boyfriend is busy with his work and we didnt even talk! ohmyy..so workaholic.and today,when he called me (its because i sms him.if i dont,he wont be calling me neither) he had this `COLD` voice while talking to me.i dont like whenever my boyfriend talks to me like especially when we dont talk in a day.i tend to easily miss my boyfriend`s voice.and,i cant sleep peacefully without hearing his voice.so,please lah,dont use that COLD voice of yours.i hate it & i dont like it. "sayang,i know you are busy but that doesnt mean you can be so cold to me.." haikz:|

AND NOW,I`M SPEECHLESS.

i just dont know what to post anymore.no words to be spoken out & no more IDEAS.sorry guys.i guess,i dont have the mood to blog anymore.sorry aite.